I realized that I was a neurotic when I saw how much I suffered when relating to others, whether in a work meeting, a date, a family reunion or a party with strangers. I tended to isolate, totally disintegrated, or to try to be “funny,” begging for everybody´s attention, but with a great deal of suffering involved.

There are other mates who only discovered their neurosis when they acknowledged how much they suffered when somebody else surpassed them, and when that person got recognition... well, that was really the worst thing that could happen to them.

Then there are those who suffer over money, either because they have it and don´t want to spend it, or because they don´t have enough. They also suffer when somebody does not pay them a debt or when someone does not lend them money. Then they act hurt, indifferent or even get angry.

And then there are those who upon coming home find a list of wants -no money for this or that- and their only excuse is “I don´t have money.” The worse thing is that they adopt this “I don´t have” attitude under any circumstances, even in situations of mutual advantage and specially when it is a question of helping someone else.

Many of us have the experience of leaving home every day in a hurry, anxious over getting late to work, school, a date, etc., always rushing and looking at the watch. Even on weekends or on vacation we ruin picnics or trips with our anxiety over coming back home before it gets “late.”

To some partners ,the illness is manifested  through fears, for example: they can no longer leave to the street for the dangers that watch them. "One can no longer walk with security neither by day", they spend it taking care the backs, allowing that the fear  takes possession of them. This way, they stop to go to the school, or  to the work, to social meetings, or  to the market, staying paralyzed by the fear , to such a degree that they annul their life.    

As well as these, there are many experiences through which the illness of the Neurosis is manifested.  

We have not spoken specifically of the aggressiveness that we suffer before arriving to the Movement, the aggressiveness of us, of not being subjected to a serious therapy as the one that offers in the groups Good Will of Neurotics Anonymous, goes in increase, what causes that in some cases you ends up even feeling, the desire to kill, or , we end up suffering a very strong emotional imbalance that could have taken us to the prison, to the hospital or the vault. To the more and more aggressive being, let us believe an atmosphere around us of hate, fear, sadness, confusion and rejection that it affects our dear beings that are whose without realizing more we hurt.  

Dominated by the illness, we end up thinking::  

cannot destroy those that surround me, but yes I can make myself I damage myself, and to make them feel guilty of a suicide intent or of my death.  

Is dragged by the conflicts that I have attracted myself without realizing. With a lot of pain I am caught in the desperation and the only escape that I see it is the false door.

Is so tired of living that I find the death as a rest.   

The Good Will Movement 24 hours, of Neurotics Anonymous teaches us to calmly live in spite of any problem that we have. We are to serve him: we wait for it.