SUICIDE

I waited years to marry, all in my family already a had couple and they had formed there own.    

After many intents, I decided to transform the life of a bum, just worth marring me.This way, I supposed that he would finish marrying me. I thought  that the gratitude would force him to it. I made it this way . Although it seems incredible, I took him a bath , I deloused him, I fed him, I dressed him, I him shoes and everything that was necessary. He was another man. Certainly he married me. Everybody was admired of what I had made.    

During three years the things went well. The problem began when I found him with another woman, in the department that I had bought him and in my own bed. I felt the death and an enormous desire of dying. The man that, step by step , I rebuild, adorning and designing to my whim, he betrayed me, in my own face and in the vilest way. Surprisingly I did not want to kill him. I loved him so much!. Then, hopelessly, I tried to finish with my life. nothing made sense. I had lost the only reason that justified my existence.    

I took a flask of pills and I mixed them with poison for rats. Already in the hospital I realized that until in that it had failed. The first thing that I saw, blurredly, went to a nurse that caressed me the hair and that he/she told me that there was a solution.   

In that moment it was that I received the first information of the existence of a group of the Association, 24 hours of Neurotics Anonymous, where they not only helped me  see why I had fallen to such extreme , but rather it was also the place where I could find a solution to many of the feelings that had taken me to that decision and the dissatisfaction of all my life, caused by a lack of love to myself.  

As this case, we have seen arrive to our groups  many people, after a suicide intent and to others that harbored a similar idea during a lot of time. It fits to point out that also the relatives of partners with ideas suicides have found great help in the Association.